Jack blushed and pulled away, knowing that somewhere in his subconscious he was still holding himself back. He was still nervous, still a little frightened, still not over everything. He had only been with Glen for over two weeks, and had been back with Rufus now for a month, and here he was still acting so foolish over-
"I'm sorry."
It had not been so long since they had last made love. Jack could remember it well, how he'd let himself go completely and how Barma had always been there to catch him, but it was harder . . . this time. He felt embarrassed. He wanted Rufus to feel loved, but he wasn't even coming off as affectionate. Jack felt too trapped in his own mind, but wasn't sure of how to get out. First, Barma wanted things slow, but then Jack hadn't been coning forth with enough passion. Maybe there was something wrong with him, maybe he just needed more time. He loved Rufus, he knew that, and he wanted this for them, but if he wasn't going to be pleasing, or if he was going to let the past hold him back, then he wasn't sure what to do with himself.
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Date: 2010-10-17 09:38 pm (UTC)"I'm sorry."
It had not been so long since they had last made love. Jack could remember it well, how he'd let himself go completely and how Barma had always been there to catch him, but it was harder . . . this time. He felt embarrassed. He wanted Rufus to feel loved, but he wasn't even coming off as affectionate. Jack felt too trapped in his own mind, but wasn't sure of how to get out. First, Barma wanted things slow, but then Jack hadn't been coning forth with enough passion. Maybe there was something wrong with him, maybe he just needed more time. He loved Rufus, he knew that, and he wanted this for them, but if he wasn't going to be pleasing, or if he was going to let the past hold him back, then he wasn't sure what to do with himself.
He was being far too sensitive at this point.