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duke_of_illusions) wrote2011-10-30 10:21 pm
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domesticity
Al had stayed over last night... and hasn't quite left this morning, either. The day is stretching on, and Barma is still beautifully comfortable, now immersed in a book, as his fingers trail through Al's hair.
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Quick, firm. Al's arms slip around him, squeezing softly. "I never brought it up, I never asked anyone about it. Everyone I've been around probably assumed the same thing."
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Just as firm.
"But- for moving forward, the few things you should know. One, sugar. There's a reason I ply you with it."
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Honestly, he's more relieved than anything.
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Nuzzling him back.
"Even if you drag on your way to the kitchen- or just drag your way to my room, I'll always feed you. It'll help a great deal. Third- your top, dominant, or even more vanilla sexual partner, if it is just brought about by exertion."
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Just hearing all of this is a release.
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Kissing him.
"And I'm going to kill Break."
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At the last, though, his fingers tighten a little on Barma.
"... Rufus, nobody's probably ever told him. Or Ryo, for that matter..."
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But he is going to rip his face off, from the look of the set of his jaw.
"It's his job to protect you, too. He took your virginity. He still plays with Ryo routinely."
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As ill-timed as it is, knowing that Rufus would be so protective of him is a good feeling, too.
"It's an honest mistake, with no permanent harm to me. I'm more worried about them, to be honest."
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Even if he doesn't look happy, at the moment. But he kisses Al's forehead, and seems to calm a little.
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"Thank you so much."
His eyes are closed.
"I really needed to hear this. Thank you."
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Soft, still so frustrated with himself.
"You- were hurting so needlessly."
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Quiet, but firm.
"I've managed to hide much worse from my own brother." He hesitates, sighs. "... it may be a family trait, come to think of it."
Al strokes Barma's hair. "The point is that I was also deliberately hiding those feelings from you as well. ... I won't be doing that anymore."
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Touching his cheek and throat, softly.
"It sounds hard for you."
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He gratefully leans into the touches, craving them.
"It... is difficult, bringing up painful things. I hate the feeling of having to rely on someone, even if I'm always asking others to rely on me. I guess it's a feeling of being weak, somehow... you always want to believe you can manage on your own."
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Sighing.
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"And it takes a lot of courage to be you. I'm very proud, and very honored, to know that you have trusted me even a little."
He gently touches his cheek with a fingertip, smiling warmly.
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Just as sincere.
"Would you like me to wait outside while you talk to Break? He needn't see me."
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But for the rest, he takes a deep breath and shakes his head.
"No. With as many negative feelings as you two hold for each other, I know he wouldn't want you to be watching us. And he'd feel betrayed if he found out I knew you'd been there."
He strokes Barma's hair. He'd do the same, the other way around.
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This is going to hurt Break terribly.
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"I'll do that," he promises, with a deep sigh. "But knowing him, he'll still worry about it terribly. He's very sensitive when it comes to pain, especially if he believes he's at fault."
That blind love for him comes through in Al's voice.
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