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Al had stayed over last night... and hasn't quite left this morning, either. The day is stretching on, and Barma is still beautifully comfortable, now immersed in a book, as his fingers trail through Al's hair.

Date: 2011-11-05 05:10 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] info-barma.livejournal.com
Barma smiles, and moves to guide him onto the bed.

Date: 2011-11-05 05:16 am (UTC)
al_truism: (It's f#@%ing cold out.)
From: [personal profile] al_truism
His legs barely work, so he's very happy to flop down on the sheets, moving as close to Barma as he can get.

Date: 2011-11-05 05:16 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] info-barma.livejournal.com
"I really love you."

Murmuring.

Date: 2011-11-05 05:23 am (UTC)
al_truism: (Carry you from Hell to home again)
From: [personal profile] al_truism
Al wraps himself close to him, smiling, and he has to swallow to make his throat work.

"I love you so much, Rufus."

Date: 2011-11-05 05:30 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] info-barma.livejournal.com
"You stay right there. I'm putting the tea on."

And coming back quickly with a glass of water and a piece of chocolate.

Date: 2011-11-05 05:34 am (UTC)
al_truism: (Fuck the wha?)
From: [personal profile] al_truism
"I didn't do anything for you yet," he protests weakly, moving to sit up a little to drink the water properly.

Date: 2011-11-05 05:35 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] info-barma.livejournal.com
"Shush, darling, you're being taken care of today, your submission was everything."

Date: 2011-11-05 05:37 am (UTC)
al_truism: (My steel mask)
From: [personal profile] al_truism
Al seems to accept that, flushing a little and laying his cheek on Barma's shoulder, letting the chocolate melt against his tongue.

"... was wonderful."

Date: 2011-11-05 05:38 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] info-barma.livejournal.com
"That was subspace."

He smiles.

"I'm glad you liked it."

Date: 2011-11-05 05:46 am (UTC)
al_truism: (That's not how a love song goes)
From: [personal profile] al_truism
"I like pain just as much," he decides, with a small smile. "I could do either. This is more vulnerable emotionally."

Date: 2011-11-05 05:52 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] info-barma.livejournal.com
"This is a specific activity designed to alter your feelings, perceptions, etc. You'll probably feel high for a longer amount of time- and you may experience more of a drop off tomorrow."

Stroking up and down along his side.

Date: 2011-11-05 05:56 am (UTC)
al_truism: (Alone Time)
From: [personal profile] al_truism
Something about that last bit makes him frown.

"... the drop offs... they're a thing for other people, too?"

Date: 2011-11-05 06:02 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] info-barma.livejournal.com
"...I didn't warn you about this?"

Frowning, instantly.

Date: 2011-11-05 06:04 am (UTC)
al_truism: (That's not how a love song goes)
From: [personal profile] al_truism
"... no one has."

Softly. Obviously this is a big deal.

Date: 2011-11-05 06:06 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] info-barma.livejournal.com
"Al, I'm so sorry."

Stroking his hair.

"Sometimes, the morning after, your body can react with a sort of hangover-effect. For me, it manifests as a sort of teary-ness."

Date: 2011-11-05 06:08 am (UTC)
al_truism: (I never wanted it to be this way)
From: [personal profile] al_truism
"... so that's normal?" Al leans into his touch.

Date: 2011-11-05 06:12 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] info-barma.livejournal.com
"Yes. Another unfortunate side effect is that your mind will cast about for something to blame for what you're feeling. Self-doubt, recrimination, and frequently because of the timing a sense of self-disgust at what you've submitted to is normal."

He feels dreadful, heart aching as he tells him things he should have known months ago.

"It isn't real. It's your system coming down, and there are ways to make it go away."

Date: 2011-11-05 06:18 am (UTC)
al_truism: (Try To Smile)
From: [personal profile] al_truism
"Thank goodness," he whispers softly, nuzzling into his shoulder.

"I'd thought..." A deep breath. "This is much better."

Date: 2011-11-05 06:20 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] info-barma.livejournal.com
"I'm an idiot for not having told you."

Soft, horrified.

"You were so- practiced. I assumed you must know."

Date: 2011-11-05 06:23 am (UTC)
al_truism: (It's f#@%ing cold out.)
From: [personal profile] al_truism
"It's not your fault."

Quick, firm. Al's arms slip around him, squeezing softly. "I never brought it up, I never asked anyone about it. Everyone I've been around probably assumed the same thing."

Date: 2011-11-05 06:29 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] info-barma.livejournal.com
"I don't care about any of them. I'm entrusted with your welfare, when it comes to what we do together, and I should have made sure you understood."

Just as firm.

"But- for moving forward, the few things you should know. One, sugar. There's a reason I ply you with it."

Date: 2011-11-05 06:34 am (UTC)
al_truism: (It's black and it's white)
From: [personal profile] al_truism
Al nuzzles him, nodding.

Honestly, he's more relieved than anything.
Edited Date: 2011-11-05 06:36 am (UTC)

Date: 2011-11-05 06:38 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] info-barma.livejournal.com
"Two, aside from that, a full and balanced meal. Plenty of fruit, bread, and meat."

Nuzzling him back.

"Even if you drag on your way to the kitchen- or just drag your way to my room, I'll always feed you. It'll help a great deal. Third- your top, dominant, or even more vanilla sexual partner, if it is just brought about by exertion."

Date: 2011-11-05 06:45 am (UTC)
al_truism: (Shades of Grey)
From: [personal profile] al_truism
Al nods again, warm and pressed close.

Just hearing all of this is a release.

Date: 2011-11-05 06:57 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] info-barma.livejournal.com
"For the next- dozen or so times we play, I'm going to check on you in person the day afterwards. Either by having you stay over, or coming to find you."

Kissing him.

"And I'm going to kill Break."

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